brettsmith12

Hey, this is my first Blog on this, But i have written them before.

Hey, Im Brett, This is my first blog. :)

In this blog im going to simply write about all my proper crushes over the years, the memorys are feint, but some are very strong.
To all these, Sorry for embaressment or anything . :)


Crush 1: Jenny Stevens
This was my first crush, to me, this girl was the best in the world at this age, i was like, 6? She looked so pretty to me, Blonde hair, tall, and a awesome personality, we got on really well, She was a really friendly girl, I Don't know what would of happend if i went out with her, but i did take up the guts to ask her out, and we were only little, and she said no unfortunatley, I Can't remember the reason, But she just liked me as a friend, But think about it, 6 Year's old? Damn.

Crush 2: Christine Wedgeborrow(Now Steward)
This was my first real crush where i clinged on for a while, this girl was amazing when i used to know her, this was in late first school, early primary school i used to walk home with her, and every mintue was like heaven talking to her, Her sister whos like, 9 or 10 now, used to really like me aswell, she kept trying to beat me up and Christine would laugh at her failures. :) These memorys are really close to me, I Loved her so much at one point i blew off a friend just to walk with her, Unfortunatley i never had the courage to ask her out, if i did, Im sure the answer would've been no, I wasn't very popular during late Primary school, sure i was a nice guy, but lets just say i got called Annorexic alot. Christine is the best crush i had through my small childhood years, i will never forget a few walks with her past the concer tree, She was really Beautiful to me now, She totaly changed during the late Middle school years, so i went off and moved on.

Crush 3: Laura Francis <3, I Love you.
Probably the best girl i have ever met in my life so far, This will be the longest one, as i loved her for a very long time.
I First met Laura, back in Year 9 *High School*, a few years on from Christine, We got put together in Mrs Laas'es Maths class, and sat next to eachother, on the first day, It was soo awkward, this is when i was major league shy from my previous rejections, i wass soo uptight, and she was aswell. There was a massive awkward silence for the first time we sat next to eachother, then in the second time, i managed to say Hello, and i remeber as clear in my head, as soon as she said that, i fell really badly in love with her, As we got to know eachother a lil more, the awkwards went down a tiny bit, but they were still there in year 9, Toward the end of year 9, A Rumour spread that I Liked Laura, and She heard it, and completely went shy around me for a few months, i Asked her out face to face during this, And She said No, I only like you as a friend brett. But did that stopp me? No way, i took a major league risk during this point in my life, I phoned up my cousin Alex (RIP) who was 15ish at the time, and begged him for advice on how to not be Shy around Laura, and how to get her to Like me for who i am, but not in a friend way, And he said to me, that the only way you're not going to be shy, is if you overcome it yourself, ill help you cousin, So he invited me to this party, and teached me how to not be shy around girls, and eventually, after a few more hangouts with my cousin, My Shyness was fading away, and Me and Laura were becoming better friends then i ever dreamed would happen,
Toward the middle of year 10, Where my shyness had really gone for now, I Became a very fast typer, and very good with words if i put them into a computer, i could never say this stuff in person, But i think we both added eachother on MSN, ANd I Used my goodness with words to my advantage, and tryed to charm her to like me, Make her like my romantic side, cause if i am romantic to someones face, then i usually go very shy.Haha, :) But Yeah, After that was going a little smoothly, i started to regain confidence, and asked her out Second time,(Toward the start of year 11, also were we became very good friends.) And she rejected me yet again, now this had an effect on me, Cause knowing all my efforts gone to waste, I Really was upset, and i even remebering sending her a very heartfelt text hoping to change her mind, and seeing if i can be her boyfriend, and hold her, just like i wanted to, and to love her, and for her to love me back for the way we are, But no. :(
Near this area, was her first proper boyfriend, Jake Hall, the twat that does not know how to treat girl's at all, I Wished and hitmyself everyday they were going out, saying i should've pushed myself, and save her the regret she will have later on for going out with him, But she didnt take any of it, and i feel so bad for not pushing myself enough and instead of her going out with jake, she went out with me. Because I Really did love her, much more then a friend, Much more then my heart and loving ember can ever explain at the time. I was heartbroken when i found out she picked jake hall over me. A Few weeks later, i had a very serious heart attack, and i texted Laura saying i feel really scared, and bad, and asked for her help. But it was too late, i fell to the floor, and i ended up in hospital in the Alexander, People said that i did it as a guilt trap, But it was rather the opposite,
I Felt that she was the most loving, caring ,and greatest girl i ever met, so i texted her, not for guilt, but because she to me, was like the other half of my heart,  My loving and caring side.

A few days later and im back at school ,with a heart problem.

Toward the end of year 11, Prom is a rage, and as you all may know what im going to do next from this, I Was going to ask Laura to the prom, i wanted to do it face to face, because i knew she wasn't  going to accpect it via msn, Because she hates it when people do that. :( At this point, I Know her extremely well, and we are very good friends, she didnt really fancy anyone else it was my chance!? Right? Wrong, i got the exact same answer, "i Only like you as a friend". I Was major heart broken, This was my one dream, The one girl i really loved, the other half of my heart, i wanted to take her to the prom, Have the best night of her lives, Then ask her out at the end of prom, And then live Summer together, as a couple. But that plan didnt go to plan, as i said, I was devastated. But this time, i rose to it, and yet again, I Planned to try and get my Best friend, to like my more then a friend, but, as im writing this now, halfway through, It got interrupted, I Eventually found out who she liked and had a crush on herself, a very close mate of mine, Josh Sanford, i was EXTREMELY Jealous of him, Ive been trying to get her to like me for the way i am, for over three years, and now, he gets her at the snap of a finger, i was major league upset, everything annoyed me, The one girl i thought was worth fighting for, The other half of my heart, Gone out of my reach like that.

After a few weeks, Ironically, i gave up with Laura Francis, admitting to her face to face, i don't fancy her anymore. And i became her Agony AUnt ,For Her and Josh.

But ,There is still, not a day goes by, where i don't think about her, And how i'd love to be the one holding her around my waist, and how i wish She'd say that im the best guy she has ever met, because Laura, you are my other half of my heart, and will remain there forever, i wish i could just hold you   affectionality, i wish i could kiss you affectionality, just once, To see what it feels like, if all my efforts for the most Beautiful, Bubbly, Vibrant, Funny, and one heck of a girl you were. I Love You, S.
Damn, That was long.

Crush 4: My Current Crush : Laura Carthey.
This is is one word, amazing.
This is my second best crush so far, this girl has made me sick my arse and frontal area's out of a window, This girl is a sure inffulence on me, And she absolutely awesome, Some people misjudge her, But she's Lovely, and ive had acrush on her for about 2ish months now really. Ill update this soon. :)